Groom's Bride 新郎的新婦

It's much easier to understand my relationship with God
as Father-son or Master-servant than Groom-bride...
because I am a "man"...
To picture myself as "bride" is very unmanlike...
Recently I feel God is teaching me this...
I felt God saying this to me.....
對我來說, 我比較容易體會與主的關係是主僕...是父子...
卻很難體會主與自己的關係是新郎新婦...
原因很簡單, 因為我是"男人"...
把自己看成"新婦"似乎非常不MAN...(不像男人)
最近主一直在這方面感動...突破我...
前兩天等候主的當中, 我感受到主說...

Just like before... when you know how to be My son,
you know how I love you as a Father to you,
then you have a "Father's heart",
you know how to be a good father to your son...
Likewise, when you know how to be my bride,
you know how Me as Groom loves you as a bride
then you will have a "Groom's heart"
you will really know how to be good "husband" to your wife!
就像以前, 當你知道如何作我的兒子...
體會我作為天父如何愛你時,
那麼你就有個"天父的心",
真知道如何作個好父親來愛你的兒女!
同樣的, 當你知道如何作我的新婦...
體會我作為新郎如何為你傾心時,
那麼你就會有一個"新郎的心"
知道如何作你太太的好丈夫!!!

再檢視DNA-DNA Redifined

這陣子以來一直沒寫些什麼,
因為一直在尋找...尋找
一個更多人可以參與...
一個不會讓人覺得太抽象的dna 生活方式...

經過兩個多月的尋找...
其中不免含有一些挫折感...心想
這麼好的道路...
這麼簡單明寮的DNA生活方式...
為何這麼多人覺得太抽象...太難...甚至抗拒...

挫折感中也包含著一絲對神的不滿...
雖然神的聲音從沒斷過...
但我發現自己有意無意地對主有些無言的抗議...

然而神的啟示在祂的恩慈中不斷顯明...
神的愛仍然默默地包容...等候...甚至不斷觸摸...
直到最近一兩個禮拜...
終於更深地體會到主"道成肉身"的愛...原則...
主啊 ! You are so amazing... so wonderful...

長話短說...發現一個簡單的秘訣..
讓弟兄姐妹可以"沒有壓力地"來聽主聲音...
就是我們只管沉浸在主愛的同在中,
不用"刻意...努力地"去"聽主聲音"...
因為既然主的聲音是"spontaneous即興而來"...
那麼主權在主...不在我的"聽"
我只要安靜...注目於主....學習
進入主的同在中...愛慕主的同在...
那麼..."發聲權"在祂...
當祂說話時,不管是什麼方式...
聲音...意念...異象...異夢...觸摸...
我自然會聽到...感受到...看到...

如此一來, 不用有壓力...不用沒面子...
主權在神...聽不到有時...聽到有時...
都在乎神...記得是"聖靈的活水"自然湧流...
不用我去擠...不用我去擔心...
我只要更多...更渴慕在主愛的同在中...
享受祂的愛...愛祂...that's it....
Praise the Lord! Hallelujah!

聖靈的果子4

自己的忍耐...
別人既然不信實, 我也不信實...
別人既然死不肯改變...
我就不管你了 ! 我很容易就放棄了 !
Your own patience...
while others unfaithful... I tend to be unfaithful...
while others never want to change...
I give up finally... easily...

與所愛的主一起忍耐...
別人不信實, 我仍然信實...
別人死不肯改變...我仍不放棄...我溫柔...I Gently push !
Patience(Long suffering) with the Love I love....
while others unfaithful...
we remain faithful---Faithfulness
while others never want to change...
we don't give up...
We(the Lord and I) Gently Push --- Gentleness

聖靈的果子3Fruit of the Spirit3

這陣子主不斷教我何為聖靈的果子...
It's been a while the Lord continues to show me what is the fruit of the Spirit...

在"忍耐"中我問主,
, "主啊! 怎麼可能在忍耐中(long suffering)
有愛有喜樂有平安呢?"
主回答....
In patience (long suffering) I asked Him,
"Lord, how is it possible to have love, joy, and peace in long suffering?"

那要看你跟誰在一起？
你自己忍耐...就孤單...難過...挫折...
你若跟著所愛的對象在一起忍耐,
那就能在long suffering中有愛喜樂平安...
so... 你愛我嗎? 單純的愛我嗎 ?
當你在愛中與我在一起,
那麼甚至在長期忍耐中...
也能有愛有喜樂有平安...
That depends on who are you with.
When you are alone in long suffering,
you feel alone... frustrated...
but when you are with someone you love
then even in long suffering,
you will have love... joy.. peace...
So... do you love me? purely loving me... enjoy me...
Then even in long suffering,
you'll have love... joy... and peace....

病中的安息Rest in Sickness

In&out of country +too busy+weird whether=
Sick for the whole week!
And the Lord keeps telling me,
"REST... do nothing".

So weird... just rest... doing nothing!
Sometimes I think of Jesus only...
feeling "good...sweet...."
But suddenly I feel...
Is this how it feel to be like 80,90 yrs old?

Oh Lord, I am not that old yet?

"You will be soon... at that age,
when you can only think of me...
and cannot do anything else...
will you be happy?"
The Lord asked me.

Yes....... Well.... I hope so... Lord...
I feel a little bit "happy" in that...
But Lord, more.... more....
more love to Thee.

這陣子
出國+忙碌+天氣變幻=生病整個禮拜
病中主一再說...休息...完全休息

好奇怪的感覺...完全休息...什也別作 !
常常單單想著主耶穌... 覺得很幸福...
突然間覺得....
這是否是那些80/90歲的人的感覺!

主啊! 我還沒那麼老?

"你很快就會那麼老的...
那時...你什麼也不能作...
只能單單想著我... 你會快樂嗎 ?
" 主問我 !

....................會吧 !
至少現在我感覺蠻幸福的..........
但我知道... 我願更多更深....
單單愛你!

復活前Before Resurrection

這個禮拜從受難到復活,
神的話不斷提醒我三點:
第一天受苦(十字架)
第二天等候(埋葬)
第三天復活(新生命/得勝)

這兩天主繼續啟示說...
復活是我"主動發動"的,
你的功課是
1.背起我所給你的十字架(見昨日post)
2.等候- 埋葬...(自己)完全不動 !

等候真是不容易...
完全放下自己的工...需要極大的信心
我發現主一直在教我兩個功課
a.主不動我也不動 - 安息
( 常常是稍微受點苦...背一下十字架,
自己就蠢蠢欲動...沒有死透...)
b.主動了我才動...回應...抓住時機趕快動!

以往在聚會之前一定要充份準備...
查考資料...收集故事笑話...
最近學習放鬆...只是注意自己要活在主面前,
隨時與主交談...與主同行...
很多時候上台前還不知道要講些什麼...
這時候還能安息-看起來很冒險...
但我發現...
與主同冒險的歷程很有意思...很好玩 !
(adventure with the Lord...)
在受難節前一天, 在禱告中主的話語就下來..
(講"兩種十架")
週六聚晚會前上廁所時主的話才臨到
(講"等候")
每一次都有主新鮮的話語...哈利路亞 !

今天復活節, 我很興奮地等著,
不知道到時候主要給什麼話! 等著瞧吧 !
God is good... always on time....

2 kinds of cross兩種十架

從太灣回來後, 每天與時差奮鬥...
迷迷糊糊中開始思想受難的信息...
感受到主要我傳講"與主同受苦"的信息,
受主要我們受的苦...
而不要去受世界加給我們的苦
Struggling with jaglet since I came back from Taiwan...
Start thinking of the "passion" message.
I felt that God wants me to speak about "suffer with Jesus"
--- to suffer what God wants me to suffer...
not to accept the suffering from the world

週四與牧者禱告時...一位牧師禱告說...
要背起主所給的十字架...
而非自己或世界給的十字架...
In pastors praying meeting on Thursday,
one pastor prayed this...
willing to take up the cross from the Lord ...
not to take up the cross from the world

當我聽到這禱告...心中"ding"了一下...
對了...就是這個....就是講這個...
我知道這是從主來的...
When I heard this prayer....
there was a "ding" in my heart...
that's it... this is it... I knew
this is what God wants me to speak...

週五受難夜我講了這個信息...兩種十架...
從主來的十架看似很沉重...
但很快地...導致釋放平安自由...
(就像耶穌的十架....沉重地嚇死人...
但第一天受難...第二天埋葬...第三天就復活)
從世界來的十架看似輕省...走捷徑...容易...
但卻要帶來"一生...永生"的綑綁....
On Good Friday I spoke about this message-
2 kinds of cross..
the cross from the Lord "look heavy...+"
but it leads to freedom... peace... healing...
(Just like Jesus' cross... it looks
"too heavy... scares me to death"..
but he suffers and dies for 1st day..
2nd days -bury...and then
on the 3rd days... he resurrected... )
on the contrary, the cross from the world
"looks easy... fast solution..."
but it leads to bondage...
for lifetime long... even for eternity...

所以...你的選擇是那一種十架?
神啊...祢是何等美好...
主耶穌...祢是何等美好...
聖靈啊...祢真是天堂的天才...
謝謝祢及時...隨時的幫助引導啟示...
哈利路亞 !
so... what's your choice?
God is good... all the time...
Jesus is good... all the time...
and Holy Spirit, You are a genius...
Thank you for the help... on time... in time...
Hallelujah!

One sister's testimony姊妹的見證

攀 岩

哈利路亚...主耶酥跟你走过的路径处处留下惊喜,想到你属于我我属于你, 我们朝朝暮暮在一起,我就是这样的满足... 在你里面我每天欢喜快乐.

我看到自已像个小孩被主抛在空中,然后又接住,
像天下爱孩子的父母一样跟孩子在玩耍,
主耶酥哈哈大笑,我也被逗得咯咯大笑.我好开心.

又看到主耶酥带领我攀岩石,虽然那岩石很难爬,
但主常常伸手拉我一把,我们终于爬上了岩顶群山峻岭都在我们脚下.

我对主说:今早我和团契辅导有着很美好的交通,
透过她使我得更到深的释放,
更明白我的一生...都是掌握在神的手中,
我要...为神每天的带领及我们家所发生的事都来感谢.

这时我又见我弯下腰给主耶酥鞠了一躬, 看到主扶着我的双肩很开心的说(”weII”很好,你这样做得很好.在走天路过程中需要有人来扶持,她是你的属灵遮盖,因为走天路非常的难走.就像我们在攀岩一样如果没有人拉你一把.你可能就会后退没有勇气再往前行了,就像我和你一样不是彼此拉着爬着才爬到顶峰的吗?)

谢谢主的话语. 在和辅导祷告时.
我觉得腹中有江河在奔腾,
祷告的时候真的感觉圣灵在带领,
这样的感觉是以前没有的经验.
难怪辅导说我们又多了个代祷者,
主啊!谢谢你,盼望你常赐下圣灵与我同在.

new development新發展

剛從台灣回來, 兩個禮拜來不斷調時差,
但心中還是想著怎麼處理這個部落格...
今晨有同工跟我提到一個簡單的方式,
就是網頁與部落格結合...
把一些固定的資料放在網頁上...
把見證集放在部落格中...
我想我該試試看...
Just came back from Taiwan trip...
It's hard to adjust the jetlag...
Keep thinking how to reconstruct this blog...
Praise the Lord! One co-worker talked to me
about a easy way ---
to combine website and blog together....
I think I should try it...

加油加油... 快來了 ! 敬請期待 !
So.... coming soon! Thanks for waiting.