忍耐中有恩慈Kindness in Patience

有一次主告訴我...
為什麼聖靈的果子是 愛...喜樂...
因為當你談"戀愛"(愛)時,
不管你面對什麼難題...
就是天塌下來, 你仍然很快樂(喜樂)...
然後你的心終於有"安息"(平安)
Once the Lord showed me...
why the fruit of the Holy Spirit is...
Love... Joy...Peace
Because when you fall in "Love"...
no matter what happens...
you are happy--- you have "Joy"!
And your heart finally found "peace"

今晨親近主時, 神又告訴我...
為何聖靈的果子是...忍耐...恩慈...良善...
This morning in my quiet time with God...
He showed me again...
when the fruit of the Spirit is
Patience... Kindness... Goodness...

因為"忍耐"中有"恩慈"不是從人來的...
人的忍耐持續不久...很快就會發脾氣...
然後會作些"不恩慈...沒有良善"的事...
但從聖靈來的忍耐卻是不同...
忍耐中有恩慈憐憫...
忍耐中能做出"良善"的事...
Because "kindness" in "patience" is not human nature...
human's patience doesn't last long...
soon or later anger follows...
then you will do something that is not kind and good...
But Patience from the Spirit is different...
There is Kindness... Goodness...
in the process of Patience...

我突然間明白這陣子以來的自己...
為何好像沒有那麼喜樂平安...
甚至跟兒子吵架...
對教會屬靈光景有點灰心...
因為在自己的忍耐中
會失去耐性...會發作...
I suddenly understand where I am...
how come not having much "joy...peace"...
why I even fought with my son...
why I feel frustrated about church situation...
because my own patience is not real patience...
anger and frustration follows...

突然間我也明白何為神的"長痛"...
祂對我是如此"不輕易發怒"....
I also feel what God's "long-suffering" means...
How He is "slow to anger" to me... to many....

主啊! 我需要祢的忍耐...
聖靈啊...我需要祢!
所以我可以在恆久忍耐中...
有恩慈...有良善...
Oh Lord, I need that...
I need Your Patience...
so that I can have Kindness and Goodness
in this long-suffering process....

主的審判Judgment of the Lord

昨晚一位姐妹講到主對她說..
"妳所要的我都給妳了(孩子...恩賜...服事...),
我也要審判妳..."
她起先以為她聽錯了...
後來想起那五千兩...兩千兩...和一千兩的比喻
才相信這也是從神而來

今晨親近主時為此禱告...
主提醒我說...
不要怕審判...也不用怕講審判...
我的審判有兩種結果...
1. 你這又良善又忠心的僕人...可以進來享受...
2. 你這又惡又懶的僕人...丟到外面黑暗裡...
前者指的是善用主所給的才能
勇敢去作天國投資的人
後者指的是因懼怕而隱藏自己才能者...

我想到自己....想到許多弟兄姐妹...
其實在服事中....人人都會有懼怕...
就如基甸和那三百勇士...
他們並不是沒有懼怕...
而是願意回應主呼召...
跨過懼怕出來服事,
就看到神使用...神同在....

主啊 ! 難怪祢會對約書亞說,
"當剛強壯膽...不要懼怕...也不要驚惶...."
幫助我靠著祢的應許,
在祢的同在中....
跨越懼怕...爭戰得勝...
將來可以坦然面對祢的審判!

I AM for you 我是為了你

這兩天睡得好晚,
因為在作房子整修...好累...
早上試著安靜親近神,
但滿腦子的事情...
房子整修...兒子的頭髮...
宣教年會...教會40天禁食禱告...
有情天三月底台灣巡迴...
完全無法安靜下來...
I woke up late the last two days
because I did some house works...
very tired... this morning
when I tried to wait upon the Lord,
so many things flew over my head....
I found myself couldn't quiet down....
house works... my son's hairstyle...
mission conference... 40 days fast prayer...
Heaventunes' tour in the end of March....

我掙扎著想安靜...掙扎再掙扎....
突然間一個意念進來...
I struggled... tried to be still...
while struggling again and again...
suddenly came a spontaneous thought...

"Why not just pray for these things...
I am in all these things...and
I AM for you, not against you(these things)
為何不就為這些事禱告...
我都在這些事當中..
I AM for you, not against you...
我是為你的..不是敵對你(這些事)的..."

我順著這意念去禱告...
然後我感受到主濃厚甜蜜的同在...
哈利路亞 !
主真是"為我", 不是"拉扯我" !
I obeyed this thoughts...
and prayed those things...
I felt the sweet presence of the Lord...
Hallelujah! Indeed...
God is For me, not against me....

Let Go and Let God放手讓神

兒子前天理了個很奇怪的頭,
太太看了非常苦惱...
到現在我還沒有看到
(也許他故意躲著我)
跟太太禱告時神不斷地提醒我們...
My son cut a very weird hairstyle
My wife was very upset
and until now I havn't seen it yet...
(Maybe he is trying to avoid me)
While praying with Rachel,
God reminds us ....

放手交給我...
讓我來處理...
我愛他, 我正在他身上作工 !
Let go... and let me handle it...
I love him....
and I am doing something in him...

我記得我以前輔導會友的家庭...
遇到這種情形, 我也是如此勸父母...
let go and let God 放手交給神處理
但真沒想到會發生在自己的兒子身上
說實在的...真不容易 !
但...好吧! 我只有不斷地...真正地相信...
神啊 ! 我知道祢的刀正在修剪...
(這個禮拜體會很深...)
一方面修剪我...
但主啊 ! 祢一定一定也會修剪他的...
I remember I used to advise other parent the same way when that happened...
Let go and let God....
Yet... it's another story when that happens to my own family...
I can only keep persuading myself...
Trust God...God is up to something...
His knife (Monday's post)... is doing something..
on me... but please God...
Do something on him too....

主啊....995 (救救我) 哈利路亞!!!
Oh God... HELP!!! Hallelujah!!!