Groom's Bride 新郎的新婦

It's much easier to understand my relationship with God
as Father-son or Master-servant than Groom-bride...
because I am a "man"...
To picture myself as "bride" is very unmanlike...
Recently I feel God is teaching me this...
I felt God saying this to me.....
對我來說, 我比較容易體會與主的關係是主僕...是父子...
卻很難體會主與自己的關係是新郎新婦...
原因很簡單, 因為我是"男人"...
把自己看成"新婦"似乎非常不MAN...(不像男人)
最近主一直在這方面感動...突破我...
前兩天等候主的當中, 我感受到主說...

Just like before... when you know how to be My son,
you know how I love you as a Father to you,
then you have a "Father's heart",
you know how to be a good father to your son...
Likewise, when you know how to be my bride,
you know how Me as Groom loves you as a bride
then you will have a "Groom's heart"
you will really know how to be good "husband" to your wife!
就像以前, 當你知道如何作我的兒子...
體會我作為天父如何愛你時,
那麼你就有個"天父的心",
真知道如何作個好父親來愛你的兒女!
同樣的, 當你知道如何作我的新婦...
體會我作為新郎如何為你傾心時,
那麼你就會有一個"新郎的心"
知道如何作你太太的好丈夫!!!

再檢視DNA-DNA Redifined

這陣子以來一直沒寫些什麼,
因為一直在尋找...尋找
一個更多人可以參與...
一個不會讓人覺得太抽象的dna 生活方式...

經過兩個多月的尋找...
其中不免含有一些挫折感...心想
這麼好的道路...
這麼簡單明寮的DNA生活方式...
為何這麼多人覺得太抽象...太難...甚至抗拒...

挫折感中也包含著一絲對神的不滿...
雖然神的聲音從沒斷過...
但我發現自己有意無意地對主有些無言的抗議...

然而神的啟示在祂的恩慈中不斷顯明...
神的愛仍然默默地包容...等候...甚至不斷觸摸...
直到最近一兩個禮拜...
終於更深地體會到主"道成肉身"的愛...原則...
主啊 ! You are so amazing... so wonderful...

長話短說...發現一個簡單的秘訣..
讓弟兄姐妹可以"沒有壓力地"來聽主聲音...
就是我們只管沉浸在主愛的同在中,
不用"刻意...努力地"去"聽主聲音"...
因為既然主的聲音是"spontaneous即興而來"...
那麼主權在主...不在我的"聽"
我只要安靜...注目於主....學習
進入主的同在中...愛慕主的同在...
那麼..."發聲權"在祂...
當祂說話時,不管是什麼方式...
聲音...意念...異象...異夢...觸摸...
我自然會聽到...感受到...看到...

如此一來, 不用有壓力...不用沒面子...
主權在神...聽不到有時...聽到有時...
都在乎神...記得是"聖靈的活水"自然湧流...
不用我去擠...不用我去擔心...
我只要更多...更渴慕在主愛的同在中...
享受祂的愛...愛祂...that's it....
Praise the Lord! Hallelujah!

聖靈的果子4

自己的忍耐...
別人既然不信實, 我也不信實...
別人既然死不肯改變...
我就不管你了 ! 我很容易就放棄了 !
Your own patience...
while others unfaithful... I tend to be unfaithful...
while others never want to change...
I give up finally... easily...

與所愛的主一起忍耐...
別人不信實, 我仍然信實...
別人死不肯改變...我仍不放棄...我溫柔...I Gently push !
Patience(Long suffering) with the Love I love....
while others unfaithful...
we remain faithful---Faithfulness
while others never want to change...
we don't give up...
We(the Lord and I) Gently Push --- Gentleness

聖靈的果子3Fruit of the Spirit3

這陣子主不斷教我何為聖靈的果子...
It's been a while the Lord continues to show me what is the fruit of the Spirit...

在"忍耐"中我問主,
, "主啊! 怎麼可能在忍耐中(long suffering)
有愛有喜樂有平安呢?"
主回答....
In patience (long suffering) I asked Him,
"Lord, how is it possible to have love, joy, and peace in long suffering?"

那要看你跟誰在一起？
你自己忍耐...就孤單...難過...挫折...
你若跟著所愛的對象在一起忍耐,
那就能在long suffering中有愛喜樂平安...
so... 你愛我嗎? 單純的愛我嗎 ?
當你在愛中與我在一起,
那麼甚至在長期忍耐中...
也能有愛有喜樂有平安...
That depends on who are you with.
When you are alone in long suffering,
you feel alone... frustrated...
but when you are with someone you love
then even in long suffering,
you will have love... joy.. peace...
So... do you love me? purely loving me... enjoy me...
Then even in long suffering,
you'll have love... joy... and peace....

病中的安息Rest in Sickness

In&out of country +too busy+weird whether=
Sick for the whole week!
And the Lord keeps telling me,
"REST... do nothing".

So weird... just rest... doing nothing!
Sometimes I think of Jesus only...
feeling "good...sweet...."
But suddenly I feel...
Is this how it feel to be like 80,90 yrs old?

Oh Lord, I am not that old yet?

"You will be soon... at that age,
when you can only think of me...
and cannot do anything else...
will you be happy?"
The Lord asked me.

Yes....... Well.... I hope so... Lord...
I feel a little bit "happy" in that...
But Lord, more.... more....
more love to Thee.

這陣子
出國+忙碌+天氣變幻=生病整個禮拜
病中主一再說...休息...完全休息

好奇怪的感覺...完全休息...什也別作 !
常常單單想著主耶穌... 覺得很幸福...
突然間覺得....
這是否是那些80/90歲的人的感覺!

主啊! 我還沒那麼老?

"你很快就會那麼老的...
那時...你什麼也不能作...
只能單單想著我... 你會快樂嗎 ?
" 主問我 !

....................會吧 !
至少現在我感覺蠻幸福的..........
但我知道... 我願更多更深....
單單愛你!

復活前Before Resurrection

這個禮拜從受難到復活,
神的話不斷提醒我三點:
第一天受苦(十字架)
第二天等候(埋葬)
第三天復活(新生命/得勝)

這兩天主繼續啟示說...
復活是我"主動發動"的,
你的功課是
1.背起我所給你的十字架(見昨日post)
2.等候- 埋葬...(自己)完全不動 !

等候真是不容易...
完全放下自己的工...需要極大的信心
我發現主一直在教我兩個功課
a.主不動我也不動 - 安息
( 常常是稍微受點苦...背一下十字架,
自己就蠢蠢欲動...沒有死透...)
b.主動了我才動...回應...抓住時機趕快動!

以往在聚會之前一定要充份準備...
查考資料...收集故事笑話...
最近學習放鬆...只是注意自己要活在主面前,
隨時與主交談...與主同行...
很多時候上台前還不知道要講些什麼...
這時候還能安息-看起來很冒險...
但我發現...
與主同冒險的歷程很有意思...很好玩 !
(adventure with the Lord...)
在受難節前一天, 在禱告中主的話語就下來..
(講"兩種十架")
週六聚晚會前上廁所時主的話才臨到
(講"等候")
每一次都有主新鮮的話語...哈利路亞 !

今天復活節, 我很興奮地等著,
不知道到時候主要給什麼話! 等著瞧吧 !
God is good... always on time....

2 kinds of cross兩種十架

從太灣回來後, 每天與時差奮鬥...
迷迷糊糊中開始思想受難的信息...
感受到主要我傳講"與主同受苦"的信息,
受主要我們受的苦...
而不要去受世界加給我們的苦
Struggling with jaglet since I came back from Taiwan...
Start thinking of the "passion" message.
I felt that God wants me to speak about "suffer with Jesus"
--- to suffer what God wants me to suffer...
not to accept the suffering from the world

週四與牧者禱告時...一位牧師禱告說...
要背起主所給的十字架...
而非自己或世界給的十字架...
In pastors praying meeting on Thursday,
one pastor prayed this...
willing to take up the cross from the Lord ...
not to take up the cross from the world

當我聽到這禱告...心中"ding"了一下...
對了...就是這個....就是講這個...
我知道這是從主來的...
When I heard this prayer....
there was a "ding" in my heart...
that's it... this is it... I knew
this is what God wants me to speak...

週五受難夜我講了這個信息...兩種十架...
從主來的十架看似很沉重...
但很快地...導致釋放平安自由...
(就像耶穌的十架....沉重地嚇死人...
但第一天受難...第二天埋葬...第三天就復活)
從世界來的十架看似輕省...走捷徑...容易...
但卻要帶來"一生...永生"的綑綁....
On Good Friday I spoke about this message-
2 kinds of cross..
the cross from the Lord "look heavy...+"
but it leads to freedom... peace... healing...
(Just like Jesus' cross... it looks
"too heavy... scares me to death"..
but he suffers and dies for 1st day..
2nd days -bury...and then
on the 3rd days... he resurrected... )
on the contrary, the cross from the world
"looks easy... fast solution..."
but it leads to bondage...
for lifetime long... even for eternity...

所以...你的選擇是那一種十架?
神啊...祢是何等美好...
主耶穌...祢是何等美好...
聖靈啊...祢真是天堂的天才...
謝謝祢及時...隨時的幫助引導啟示...
哈利路亞 !
so... what's your choice?
God is good... all the time...
Jesus is good... all the time...
and Holy Spirit, You are a genius...
Thank you for the help... on time... in time...
Hallelujah!

One sister's testimony姊妹的見證

攀 岩

哈利路亚...主耶酥跟你走过的路径处处留下惊喜,想到你属于我我属于你, 我们朝朝暮暮在一起,我就是这样的满足... 在你里面我每天欢喜快乐.

我看到自已像个小孩被主抛在空中,然后又接住,
像天下爱孩子的父母一样跟孩子在玩耍,
主耶酥哈哈大笑,我也被逗得咯咯大笑.我好开心.

又看到主耶酥带领我攀岩石,虽然那岩石很难爬,
但主常常伸手拉我一把,我们终于爬上了岩顶群山峻岭都在我们脚下.

我对主说:今早我和团契辅导有着很美好的交通,
透过她使我得更到深的释放,
更明白我的一生...都是掌握在神的手中,
我要...为神每天的带领及我们家所发生的事都来感谢.

这时我又见我弯下腰给主耶酥鞠了一躬, 看到主扶着我的双肩很开心的说(”weII”很好,你这样做得很好.在走天路过程中需要有人来扶持,她是你的属灵遮盖,因为走天路非常的难走.就像我们在攀岩一样如果没有人拉你一把.你可能就会后退没有勇气再往前行了,就像我和你一样不是彼此拉着爬着才爬到顶峰的吗?)

谢谢主的话语. 在和辅导祷告时.
我觉得腹中有江河在奔腾,
祷告的时候真的感觉圣灵在带领,
这样的感觉是以前没有的经验.
难怪辅导说我们又多了个代祷者,
主啊!谢谢你,盼望你常赐下圣灵与我同在.

new development新發展

剛從台灣回來, 兩個禮拜來不斷調時差,
但心中還是想著怎麼處理這個部落格...
今晨有同工跟我提到一個簡單的方式,
就是網頁與部落格結合...
把一些固定的資料放在網頁上...
把見證集放在部落格中...
我想我該試試看...
Just came back from Taiwan trip...
It's hard to adjust the jetlag...
Keep thinking how to reconstruct this blog...
Praise the Lord! One co-worker talked to me
about a easy way ---
to combine website and blog together....
I think I should try it...

加油加油... 快來了 ! 敬請期待 !
So.... coming soon! Thanks for waiting.

三個連續的異象

我把這一週，連續看到的三個異象記錄下來。前兩個是在等候神時領受的，最後一個則是在開車時領受到的。這三個異象使我改變對人的看法，也改變我對服事的態度，使我更喜樂，更懂得欣賞身邊的人，也更能夠享受與主同工。

3/11/09
主讓我看到我與他同騎著馬，越過一天很美麗的山水，草地綠油油的，非常美麗，讓我心靈安寧。我們一直往前走，是要騎進一個高聳的山。然後當我向上仰望時，我看到父神的笑容，他是那麼開心，那麼喜樂。主阿，這異象是什麼意思？

「那些綠油油的山水，是我一直帶你經過的，只是你常錯過，你看到的都是前面的路，前面的挑戰…，但不要忘記我放在你身旁的美景，是要給你欣賞，讓你enjoy 的。當然，不要只看前面的挑戰，要在往上看，看那在天上愛你的父，就是我。Enjoy the journey, enjoy me.」

3/13/09
在等候神的時候，我繼續看到上次的那個異象。我聽到號角聲，似乎在提醒我催促我不要逗留眼前的美景。我很捨不得離開，因為前面看起來像是曠野，不是綠油油的山水和草原。但我還是跟著主的馬往前，當我往前看得時候，發現主所經過的地方，那裡的曠野立刻變成綠油油的山水和草原，我跟在他後面，其實根本沒有錯失什麼。

前方的路很遙遠，似乎永遠都到不了盡頭，有個聲音告訴我，這是一個接力，需要交棒給下一代，延續下去才會到終點。主似乎在提醒我，也許我不是那個finisher，但又有什麼關係？祂不也是等待了那麼久？！然後我看到兩個小朋友在玩耍，玩得很開心，我好羨慕，真希望我是他們。

這時候主感動我，「向主捨己不是一件痛苦的事，而是記溫柔又甜美的事。因為主愛我，因此我可以喜樂的把生命交給祂。」於是我把自己的心思、想法、目標、理想…都放在手中，交給了主，並從祂那領受新的生命和氣息。突然我發現，騎馬的圖片改變了，我變成和主一同旅遊、玩耍，就像那兩個孩子一樣。「捨己是通往喜樂和享受與主同行的必經路徑」！

3/17/09
接續3/13看到的異象，今天在開車時，我又看到接續的畫面。我看見原本通往高山，沿路充滿挑戰與危險的路，突然間變為通往神榮耀之城的大道。我問神這是什麼意思，得到的答案是：「當你用我的眼光來看，就不覺得這條路是苦的，而是我為你預備的大道，通往位神百姓預備的榮耀之城。」

Under Reconstruction敬請期待

Thanks to 1 particular comment...
I have been thinking over one question...
How to cultivate DNA lifestyle
while at the same time protecting privacy
謝謝一個建言, 我從新思考一個問題
如何一方面培養DNA門徒生活
一方面又能保護隱私 !

I've been thinking...praying...
I feel God is leading me to this direction
Turn this blog into a place where
disciples share DNA living anonymously

幾天來的思考..禱告尋求...
我覺得主在引導一個方向...
把這個園地變成一個讓
門徒以匿名的方式見證DNA生活的園地...

How to do it? I am still seeking...
Some technical problems...
(If you are an internet expert... please help)
to talk to peoples... collect testimony...
Please be patient... Coming Soon!
Hallelujah!
如何作? 我還在尋求....
如何解決一些網路技術的問題
(如果你是網路高手...請幫幫我)
如何跟人分享...收集見證...
敬請期待...忍耐中有恩慈+良善...
哈利路亞 !!!

Need God's Wisdom需要神智慧

As a pastor, there is a constant struggle in me...
how much "DNA" I should share in this blog?
DNA is about life and relationship with God... with 1 or 2 disciples... and with non-believers.
It's personal... actually too personal to put it on internet
作為一個牧師...我一直有一個掙扎...
我可以分享多少DNA在這blog裡面?
DNA是我自己與神+門徒夥伴(1-2位)+非基督徒的關係
說實在的...這是蠻私人的...


DNA must be real....
real life involves personal ..relational struggle...
many times involves my own family...
But it would not be valuable if it's not real...
DNA 需要真實...
真實就會牽涉到掙扎...牽涉到關係...家人...
不真實就沒有價值...

On the other hand,
Being too real also drive people away...
especially in Chinese "face " culture...
但如果太真實...又會使許多人不敢踏入...
特別是面對華人的"面子文化"...

"Oh God... I need your wisdom..."
I cried out to the Lord...
主啊 ! 我需要祢的智慧...
我向主呼求...

I feel that God wants me to stop for a while...
to think over this issue...
and I believe God will give me wisdom....
我覺得神似乎要我停一下...
重新思考....相信祂會給我智慧 !

God Reminds Again 神又提醒

Last night elders and pastors had long meeting...
In the middle... we seemed to had fun... but
in the end I think I felt a little bit frustrated....
This morning while waiting upon the Lord,
many thing flew over my mind....
especially about last night...
And God reminded me again....
昨晚有個很長的牧長會議...
中間似乎還蠻有意思...
但我想到最後我的表達有點挫折感
今晨親近主時思緒有點亂...
特別因昨晚的會議....
突然間神第二次提醒我...

Didn't I say "kindness and goodnessin the process of patience...."? (last Thursday)
我不是說過"忍耐中有恩慈良善"嗎 ?

Oh Lord! You are good....
I know that...
but I can't do it...
主啊 ! 祢真是厲害...
我知道...可是我作不到...

That's why you need me... Remember...
it's a fruit of the Holy Spirit....
not of your patience.... your own patience will accumulate frustration...anger... and then acts out.....
but my fruit of patience has kindness ...goodness
這就是你需要我的原因...記得...
"這忍耐"是聖靈的果子...從聖靈來....
不是從你自己而來....
你的忍耐只會堆積挫折...不平...
但我的忍耐中有恩慈良善...

Yes Lord... Thank You for your Patience...
Oh Lord... Give me Your kind....
是的主...感謝"祢的忍耐"...
將"祢"的忍耐賜給我 !

Just Do It 就去作

宣教年會結束了,
一句話一直縈繞在腦子中...
Just Do It.... 就去作...
Mission Conference ended yesterday.
One phrase keeps ringing in my mind ....
Just Do It....

禱告中...一個意念....
為病人禱告...
好像有幅圖書...
禮拜堂前面旁邊牆壁擺了些椅子...
有人在為背痛的禱告...
先測試他們是否有長短腳...
以權柄吩咐他們的腳長出來...
While praying... one thought...
Pray for the sick...
and it looks like a picture...
there are some chairs in the sanctuary,
Some people are praying for people with back pain...
They examine their legs first...
then command the leg to grow....

是的...主... 為病人禱告
好多人都已經受過訓練...
領受過恩賜的按手...分賜...
現在...要給他們實際操練...
Just Do it... 就去作... 哈利路亞 !
Yes... Lord! Praying for the sick...
So many peoples already are trained...
So many peoples receives impartation...
Now.... Just let them Do it...
Just Do it.... Hallelujah!

宣教年會Mission Conference

在整個宣教年會中,
神一次又一次的提醒...
在這個教會中...
講太多...作太少...
講太多...示範太少...見證太少...
Last 2 days in Mission Conference,
God reminds me again and again...
in this church...
Talk too much... Do too little...
Proclamation too much...
Demonstration too little....

是的 !主! 幫助我,
早點閉嘴...Just Do it...
Yes! Lord! Ｈelp me...
Shut up earlier... Just Do it!

忍耐中有恩慈Kindness in Patience

有一次主告訴我...
為什麼聖靈的果子是 愛...喜樂...
因為當你談"戀愛"(愛)時,
不管你面對什麼難題...
就是天塌下來, 你仍然很快樂(喜樂)...
然後你的心終於有"安息"(平安)
Once the Lord showed me...
why the fruit of the Holy Spirit is...
Love... Joy...Peace
Because when you fall in "Love"...
no matter what happens...
you are happy--- you have "Joy"!
And your heart finally found "peace"

今晨親近主時, 神又告訴我...
為何聖靈的果子是...忍耐...恩慈...良善...
This morning in my quiet time with God...
He showed me again...
when the fruit of the Spirit is
Patience... Kindness... Goodness...

因為"忍耐"中有"恩慈"不是從人來的...
人的忍耐持續不久...很快就會發脾氣...
然後會作些"不恩慈...沒有良善"的事...
但從聖靈來的忍耐卻是不同...
忍耐中有恩慈憐憫...
忍耐中能做出"良善"的事...
Because "kindness" in "patience" is not human nature...
human's patience doesn't last long...
soon or later anger follows...
then you will do something that is not kind and good...
But Patience from the Spirit is different...
There is Kindness... Goodness...
in the process of Patience...

我突然間明白這陣子以來的自己...
為何好像沒有那麼喜樂平安...
甚至跟兒子吵架...
對教會屬靈光景有點灰心...
因為在自己的忍耐中
會失去耐性...會發作...
I suddenly understand where I am...
how come not having much "joy...peace"...
why I even fought with my son...
why I feel frustrated about church situation...
because my own patience is not real patience...
anger and frustration follows...

突然間我也明白何為神的"長痛"...
祂對我是如此"不輕易發怒"....
I also feel what God's "long-suffering" means...
How He is "slow to anger" to me... to many....

主啊! 我需要祢的忍耐...
聖靈啊...我需要祢!
所以我可以在恆久忍耐中...
有恩慈...有良善...
Oh Lord, I need that...
I need Your Patience...
so that I can have Kindness and Goodness
in this long-suffering process....

主的審判Judgment of the Lord

昨晚一位姐妹講到主對她說..
"妳所要的我都給妳了(孩子...恩賜...服事...),
我也要審判妳..."
她起先以為她聽錯了...
後來想起那五千兩...兩千兩...和一千兩的比喻
才相信這也是從神而來

今晨親近主時為此禱告...
主提醒我說...
不要怕審判...也不用怕講審判...
我的審判有兩種結果...
1. 你這又良善又忠心的僕人...可以進來享受...
2. 你這又惡又懶的僕人...丟到外面黑暗裡...
前者指的是善用主所給的才能
勇敢去作天國投資的人
後者指的是因懼怕而隱藏自己才能者...

我想到自己....想到許多弟兄姐妹...
其實在服事中....人人都會有懼怕...
就如基甸和那三百勇士...
他們並不是沒有懼怕...
而是願意回應主呼召...
跨過懼怕出來服事,
就看到神使用...神同在....

主啊 ! 難怪祢會對約書亞說,
"當剛強壯膽...不要懼怕...也不要驚惶...."
幫助我靠著祢的應許,
在祢的同在中....
跨越懼怕...爭戰得勝...
將來可以坦然面對祢的審判!

I AM for you 我是為了你

這兩天睡得好晚,
因為在作房子整修...好累...
早上試著安靜親近神,
但滿腦子的事情...
房子整修...兒子的頭髮...
宣教年會...教會40天禁食禱告...
有情天三月底台灣巡迴...
完全無法安靜下來...
I woke up late the last two days
because I did some house works...
very tired... this morning
when I tried to wait upon the Lord,
so many things flew over my head....
I found myself couldn't quiet down....
house works... my son's hairstyle...
mission conference... 40 days fast prayer...
Heaventunes' tour in the end of March....

我掙扎著想安靜...掙扎再掙扎....
突然間一個意念進來...
I struggled... tried to be still...
while struggling again and again...
suddenly came a spontaneous thought...

"Why not just pray for these things...
I am in all these things...and
I AM for you, not against you(these things)
為何不就為這些事禱告...
我都在這些事當中..
I AM for you, not against you...
我是為你的..不是敵對你(這些事)的..."

我順著這意念去禱告...
然後我感受到主濃厚甜蜜的同在...
哈利路亞 !
主真是"為我", 不是"拉扯我" !
I obeyed this thoughts...
and prayed those things...
I felt the sweet presence of the Lord...
Hallelujah! Indeed...
God is For me, not against me....

Let Go and Let God放手讓神

兒子前天理了個很奇怪的頭,
太太看了非常苦惱...
到現在我還沒有看到
(也許他故意躲著我)
跟太太禱告時神不斷地提醒我們...
My son cut a very weird hairstyle
My wife was very upset
and until now I havn't seen it yet...
(Maybe he is trying to avoid me)
While praying with Rachel,
God reminds us ....

放手交給我...
讓我來處理...
我愛他, 我正在他身上作工 !
Let go... and let me handle it...
I love him....
and I am doing something in him...

我記得我以前輔導會友的家庭...
遇到這種情形, 我也是如此勸父母...
let go and let God 放手交給神處理
但真沒想到會發生在自己的兒子身上
說實在的...真不容易 !
但...好吧! 我只有不斷地...真正地相信...
神啊 ! 我知道祢的刀正在修剪...
(這個禮拜體會很深...)
一方面修剪我...
但主啊 ! 祢一定一定也會修剪他的...
I remember I used to advise other parent the same way when that happened...
Let go and let God....
Yet... it's another story when that happens to my own family...
I can only keep persuading myself...
Trust God...God is up to something...
His knife (Monday's post)... is doing something..
on me... but please God...
Do something on him too....

主啊....995 (救救我) 哈利路亞!!!
Oh God... HELP!!! Hallelujah!!!

One Drop of Tear 一滴眼淚

While waiting upon the Lord,
out of nowhere came one drop of tear!
one drop only... weird.... and
I was just trying to focus on the Lord...
I wasn't thinking of anything or anyone...
Why Lord? I asked...
清晨親近主時...突然間莫名其妙地...
一滴眼淚流下來...奇怪的是...當時
我只是試著注目於天父...
我根本沒想著其他事或人...
我問主, "主啊 ! 為什麼?"

No answer... No word in the beginning...
only in my mind feeling a sense of
" a little bit of holy sadness"
about my family... church...
and one word came --- pray!
主沒有回答...沒有話語...
只有一種"少許地...神聖的憂傷 "
然後一個字出現於心中---禱告!

Yes Lord... I need to be alert and pray!
I have been too busy and tired...
jetlag from London trip + too many meetings...
Fighting with my son...
worrying about him lack of spiritual hunger...
40 days fast and prayer... mission conference...
church atmosphere seems to be also lack of that...
是的...主! 我需要儆醒禱告...
這陣子有點太累...
倫敦回來後時差+忙著開會...
昨天與兒子吵架...
憂心他缺乏屬靈的渴慕...
教會中普遍的風氣好像也是如此...
40天禁食禱告...宣教年會推動...
都不怎麼熱絡 !

Pray pray pray....Lord, arise your people...
禱告禱告禱告...主啊 !興起祢的百姓 !