Friday, February 27, 2009

One Drop of Tear 一滴眼淚

While waiting upon the Lord,
out of nowhere came one drop of tear!
one drop only... weird.... and
I was just trying to focus on the Lord...
I wasn't thinking of anything or anyone...
Why Lord? I asked...
清晨親近主時...突然間莫名其妙地...
一滴眼淚流下來...奇怪的是...當時
我只是試著注目於天父...
我根本沒想著其他事或人...
我問主, "主啊 ! 為什麼?"

No answer... No word in the beginning...
only in my mind feeling a sense of
" a little bit of holy sadness"
about my family... church...
and one word came --- pray!
主沒有回答...沒有話語...
只有一種"少許地...神聖的憂傷 "
然後一個字出現於心中---禱告!

Yes Lord... I need to be alert and pray!
I have been too busy and tired...
jetlag from London trip + too many meetings...
Fighting with my son...
worrying about him lack of spiritual hunger...
40 days fast and prayer... mission conference...
church atmosphere seems to be also lack of that...
是的...主! 我需要儆醒禱告...
這陣子有點太累...
倫敦回來後時差+忙著開會...
昨天與兒子吵架...
憂心他缺乏屬靈的渴慕...
教會中普遍的風氣好像也是如此...
40天禁食禱告...宣教年會推動...
都不怎麼熱絡 !

Pray pray pray....Lord, arise your people...
禱告禱告禱告...主啊 !興起祢的百姓 !

Thursday, February 26, 2009

Father's Love 為父之愛

I had a fight with one of my son!
I was mad at him for not having spiritual hunger.
I said something that shouldn't be said...
I did something that shouldn't be done...
and I was mad at other people relalted to him... especially myself....
我與我的兒子之一吵了一架...
我生氣...因為他對屬靈的之事太漠不關心
我說了不該說的話...作了不該作的事 !
我甚至生他週邊相關的人的氣 !

I couldn't even pray... just so frustrated.
But of course I still talked to God....
asking why?
And God revealed to me.... reminding...
我氣得不能禱告....非常地挫折感
但當然, 我心中還是跟主對話....
問祂...為什麼?
主提醒我....

Feel My love(yesterday's post)....
understand that I don't comdemn you....
even at this incident...
I have expectation on you...
I work on you, but no "pushy"...
Why don't you write down 2 things
1.your expectation on him....
2. where you think he is now...
then pray for the difference... and
let me work with you together on him...
in a no pushy way....
感受那為父的愛吧(昨日的分享)!
我的無奈...我的心意...
更要了解....甚至在這事上,
我都不定你的罪 !
我對你有期待...我正在運行動工...
但我不強迫你 !
所以....你可以寫下這兩樣...
1. 你對他的期望...
2. 你覺得他現在的光景...
然後, 為之間的差異來禱告...
讓我們一起來作工...在他身上....
沒有強迫的 !

Father, thank You....
even though You are sad because
very often I lack of spiritual hunger...
yet You are so patient... so kind...
Your knife(Monday's post) is gentle...
I am willing to receive Your "trimming"...
Please work on me... and work with me
in dealing with my own son.
父啊! 我感謝祢... 雖然很多時候
祢也為我缺乏屬靈饑渴而傷心...
但祢卻是如此耐心...恩慈...
連祢的刀都是如此溫柔(週一的分享)
我願意接受祢的"修剪"...
求祢在我身上動"刀"...
也跟我一起來面對...
在我自己的兒子身上動工!

Wednesday, February 25, 2009

愛我的天父Father Loves Me

這兩天心中一直響著這首歌
"有位愛我的天父"...
(Hillsongs -約書亞專輯-"聽我的呼求"
http://mymedia.yam.com/m/1529464)
One song keep ringing in my heart these 2 days...
"There Is A Father Who Loves Me"
(http://mymedia.yam.com/m/1529464)

清晨親近主時又唱著這首歌...
唱著唱著...心中充滿著幸福...唱著唱著...
突然心中一陣感動..踴動...衝動...
好想更多更多地去愛太太...
愛孩子...愛兄弟姐妹...
This morning in my quiet time,
I sang this song over and over again...
I felt really warm in my heart....
And suddenly.... a wave of love flew from within...
to love my wife more... to love kids more...
to love brothers and sisters more.... more....

天父, 何等感謝祢無比的愛...
也感謝祢賜給我祢的愛...去愛人....等
Father, Thank you for such wondrous love...
and thank you for giving me that love to love others....

Monday, February 23, 2009

拿著小刀small knife

今晨好幸福...睡到自然醒...
並沒有努力地想等候神...親近主...
只是很自然地跟主說說話...聊聊天...
沒想到...主給了我一句寶貴的話...
This morning I feel so good... sleep a lot....
wake up naturally...
no special effort to waiting upon the Lord...
no special effort to "hear God's voice"...
only talk to God... kind of "chat with God"...
then came a precious word from the Lord!

當你願意讓耶和華軍隊的元帥拿著刀
除掉你生命中的不聖潔時,
你就ready 成為耶和華軍隊的元帥...
拿著小刀(主拿大刀)...對付仇敵..
斬斷綑綁....
When you are ready to face My Knife...
(Joshua 5 --- see yesterday's post)
to let Me take away your "unholiness"
Then you are ready to take a small knife...
you are ready to be in My army....
to cut off the bondage from the enemy...
to set the captive free...

Hallelujah!!! 哈利路亞....

Sunday, February 22, 2009

耶和華軍隊的元帥The commander of the LORD's Army

Joshua was looking at Jerico
before the battle,
and to his surprise he saw Someone...
standing with a knife.... He asked him,
" are you helping us or helping them?"
And to his surprise He said,
"neither... I come to be the commander
of the Lord's army. ..." (Joshua 5)
爭戰前約書亞察看耶利哥的地形..
不料他看到一個人, 手裡有拔出來的刀...
他說他不是來幫助任何一方的...
而是來作"耶和華軍隊元帥的"!

When I meditated on this passage,
I felt God asked me of this question,
"What is My knife for?"
當我默想這經文,
我覺得主在問我一個問題...
"我的刀是作什麼用的? "

"Of course, to kill the enemy...."
I replied...
當然是用來擊殺仇敵的...我回答

"Who is My enemy?" asked the Lord,
"那麼誰是我的仇敵?" 主問我

Evil... sins.... I said,
邪惡...罪....我回答

Mmmmm..... suddenly I got it....
when the Lord said, "Neither...I come to be
the commander of the Lord's army"
He is saying,
"I come to kill my enemy...
no matter you are in Jerico or in Israel's camp,
whenever there is evil... sin...
I am going to kill "it"!
突然間我懂了...當主說,
我不是來幫助你們或他們...
而是來做耶和華軍隊的元帥"時
祂是在說,
不管你是在耶利哥城外或城內,
只要是有罪惡的地方, 我都要對付的 !

I recalled the years of my ministry
I saw.... the Lord's knife...
took away my anger... my fear.... anxiety...
my inconsideration... my inner accusation....
my legalistic mentality.. my pride.... my......
Oh... what wondrous love...
Even Your "Knife" is so Kind...
Your Knife is an "inner surgercal knife"
that takes away my sins...
我回想我服事主的這些年日....
我彷彿看到"主的刀"...
割掉了我的脾氣...我的不體貼...
我的懼怕...憂慮... 我裡面的自責控告....
我的律法主義心態...我的驕傲...我的......
主啊...何等的愛...
甚至連"你的刀"都是溫柔的....
好像一把"內在生命的手術刀..."
割除我生命中的罪!!!

Lord.... Thanks You... Praise You!!!
主啊 !讚美祢...感謝祢 !